So tonight is going to be a little different, because instead of writing about everything ridiculous like I usually do, I’m going to write about something that really matters.
Tonight, I’m going to be talking about something that I’ve just been thinking about, and I want to confess a major sin issue that’s been slowly ruining my life.
It’s taken several months and readings to discover this flaw, and I finally discovered it in one journal session that I had with God just now. The fact that it took that long to acknowledge the issue proves the existence of the sin even further.
Pride. It brought Satan to his doom, and it’s bringing me to mine. And do you want to know why? Because pride undermines God’s authority. The phrase “pride comes before the fall” is sometimes thrown flippantly into casual conversation, but it’s anything but a casual topic.
In fact, it’s the root of where all sin began. Satan was proud when he wanted to undermine God, so he was tossed out of Heaven. Adam and Eve were proud when they wanted to know as much as God, so they were thrown out of the Garden of Eden.
And now I am questioning and challenging God in the same way just because I want to know the same things that God does. I want things my own way, and tell God that I know what’s best for me.
But do I know anything? No. I know nothing. I don’t even know anything as pointless as what I’m going to wear tomorrow (that’s not that important, but still. It’s nice to know sometimes), let alone what my future looks like.
Isaiah 40:22 refers to the people of God as grasshoppers on earth, but tonight, I realized that I am not even a grasshopper, but a cockroach. I don’t make sweet music, and I don’t jump jubilantly about, sharing music with the other grasshoppers.
Instead, I’m a pest. I wriggle around on the floor, groaning and moaning about things that don’t matter, and I go back to God with ideas on what I want my life to look like. I would squash me under a boot.
In fact, I think that when it comes down to it, that we are all cockroaches in some way. We want our own way and we want to continue living our own lives, separate from God so we can indulge ourselves in the pleasures abundant on Earth.
If we continue on like this however, we will be separated from God. We will get that separation that we claimed we wanted.
But God isn’t about to squash us under his foot without giving us a chance for redemption. Instead, he takes each of us cockroaches and breathes new life into us. He transforms us into grasshoppers, even while we were miserable, squirmy cockroaches.
But only if we let him.
So today, I would invite you all to look into your life and see where you have sinned. Abandon your cell phones and close up your computers, and spend some time in prayer, asking God to unearth the sin issues in your life. You might be surprised by how many dinosaur fossils you find.
And if you find after looking into your life that you are without sin, look again. Chances are, pride is going to be one of the main ones. Only a prideful person would look at himself and say that he or she hasn’t sinned against God, because let’s face it: we’ve all sinned and taken the fall, and we’ll sin again, and take another fall, just because we’re human
Just remember that whenever you’re performing the excavation, that God loves you no matter how many decomposing bones you find. And the important thing is to understand that, and accept his forgiveness once you ask for it.
Because he will forgive, just as he always does.