Why hellooooo you beautiful people you! It’s been so long since I’ve posted, and I can’t say I’ve boasted about all of the bread that I’ve toasted, or scrambled eggs that I’ve roasted, and sometimes burnt and- ok, this thing is already going down hill, for real…
Since the last time I’ve written, I’ve taken a few trips here and there, but nothing as cool as when I got to go out west, but I digress. Since then, I’ve begun school as a Vet Tech, my family got a new puppy, and our sweet Miss Sadie the Lady went to be with Jesus just a few short months ago 😦 But this is not a time for me to be tres triste, but for the time being, I will simply share one of my favorite pictures of her, although there are many:
For now, however, I’ve felt a great stirring on my heart to write, and share with you all something that I wrote several months ago when I was finally discovering why it took me so long to get to the path that I believe God has carved out for me. Even though I started off in English and struggled for many years in wondering who I would be and what God would have me do, now that I look back, I wouldn’t change how I went about it at all. I’ve learned so many things along the way that have prepared me to be where I am today: an animal nurse in training, and someone who is also potentially interested in Vet School, but poco a poco= one thing at a time.
So without further ado, here is what I wrote- from me, to you! And please excuse the incoherent ramblings, but if you know me, that’s just how I do:
It’s been ages since I’ve written anything, so I might be bit rusty. As I’m sure you can tell, with my lack of any hook or sufficient entry whatsoever. Nevertheless, I thought I’d write since it’s been so long, and since so many things have occurred to me (A.K.A. shown to me by Jesus) at 1:17 AM on 12/8/17 no less (I call it the 7th since I’m still awake and I’m counting it as the same day), I needed to write it down. My latest crisis so to speak has been whether God is calling me to be a Vet, or a Vet Tech. I wanted to be a vet when I was younger and got directed elsewhere for a while, which is when God had me fall in love with language, and even further poetry and narratives. I’ve learned who I was, and how I functioned as a human being, which I think were some of the most forming moments of my life. No, I didn’t find a job in the field I was pursuing, but I found out that my love for writing couldn’t be captured in a desk-job, writer team position. I can’t even count how many interviews I’ve squirmed through. My love for writing reflects the love I have for beauty, which I find all throughout creation, which I’ve also found points back to God. Whether it’s a flock of geese flying in the V formation, the early morning sun beams glittering through the fog and forming dust shadows across my note book, or even just the vibrant shocks of violet and crimson nuances in a sunset, I see God, and I just- catch my breath, and just- wow, God. I see Him and, I try not to cry, but I usually fail because sometimes, that’s the only appropriate reaction.
So now, I’m on a completely different journey, but back to where I started as a little girl. On a daily basis, I’m learning things as microscopic as the many properties found in blood, the organs that make up those cells, to things as amazing as the fact that horses run on their middle fingers, cattle are Spock fingered, and the heart beats on its own accord, basically a cordless pump. I look at all of these things and see the Creator. I see his hands crafting each and every one of these hearts, using his hands as a defibrillator, and sending us charging into life. I see Him orchestrating the different parts of the body, conducting electricity to stimulate each section of the body to work together in beautiful harmony. I learn something new basically every day, and when things connect, I say, “Wow, God. You’ve truly thought of it all. Wow.”
I look at all of this, seeing God, and it makes me want to care for his creation as best as I possibly can We are all made stewards of his masterpieces, which is seen in trees, lakes, animals, you and me. Everything that is beautiful is created perfectly. Every part of every body has a purpose.
But when sin entered the world, havoc was wreaked, and still thousands upon thousands of years later, havoc is still running rampant. Havoc is spreading diseases beyond control. Havoc is chasing what should be left to gallop freely across the plains. Havoc is destroying thousands upon millions of forests, and drilling into what should be left undrilled.
I’m not saying this to be dreary. I’m saying this because our world is at war with itself. Things are falling apart and have been falling apart for a while now. But what can we do?
I believe that God created us to be stewards, or caretakers of the earth. I believe it because the first thing God had man do was to work. We were created to care for what we’ve been given, which includes the earth itself, the animals on it, and people around us. And that goes more specifically for caring for our friends, family, pets, and also fostering the talents that God has given us.
I feel so blessed to have been created with the love for writing since it’s such a good way for me to express love to God, and to have been created with the love for science and animals since that’s a poetry unto itself. I don’t know exactly what it is that God wants me to do, or who He wants me to be, but for the first time, I finally feel like I’m on the right track. And I think that’s how you know that you’ve found your calling- whatever makes your involuntary, striated, heart muscle beat the most- that’s probably where God has called you, and I know that’s definitely true for me.
I hope this is helpful for those of you who might be in a similar crisis in wondering where God might be calling you like I was just a few years ago. I’m so thankful to be where I am now, learning who I am, what I am, and that I like ham.
Ok, I’m just kidding- but not about liking ham. I’m not sure whether God wants me to be a Vet or not. But I’m going to honor His plan, and follow Him wherever He leads, whether it involves Sam I am, some green eggs and ham, or spam *spam spam spam spam SPAMITY SPAM!!! (Monty Python Flying Circus anyone?!?) *
Ok, clearly, I’m lacking in focus at such a serious moment as this, but again, for those of you who know me, that’s just how I do. Therefore, I close out for tonight, so may you all enjoy the fourth, with friends, with pork, even in New York! May you eat all the ham, and corn that you do! Some watermelon wedges too!